We question Why Did This Happen
They say you shouldn't go before your kids; how true this is. Sadly sometimes we don't have a say in this and we as parents always question "Why"?....
When we lost our baby "Amy Rose" my personal experience was the numbness and for day's and night's the question Why? I got support from my husband and daughter, but feeling the emptiness was so overwhelming, I asked my husband how he felt and he too was empty, lost, sad and lost for words, my daughter was very clicked on as she knew I was pregnant before I knew. Every morning she would hug me and say good morning to her sister, this was a joy to experience not only for me but for the family.
Sadly one morning she came up and gave me a hug and a kiss; I felt empty but didn't want to say anything to her, nor my husband. I asked how come you haven't said good morning to your sister; she placed her hand on my face and said she's gone.
I was so shocked, but didn't want to worry her with me feeling empty. That evening I mentioned to my husband the emptiness and I went to bed feeling so drained; and we decided that tomorrow night we will have a quite night for our anniversary. Sadly; I woke with pain and bleeding, we got to hospital but we lost our girl.
This is my story, and this is a reason I became a celebrant to help and support those who have gone through the same pain. We take the journey we have been given, and when the pain becomes lighter, we as a family always include our "Amy Rose" in everything we do and we feel her around us at all times.
Planting a tree for remembrance of your child; is something I have personally done for my daughter.